Hey! [as of January 2009] I am NOT my HAIR!

"Hey... I am not my hair... I am not this skin... I am the soul that lives within..." -India A.

Cliche, I know! When I look back at these photos I can't help but sing India

Arie songs, play with my hair and want to protest something... (hehe)

So, above are the photos when I first decided to rock the baby curly 'fro....My first time ever letting my natural hair out... I looked at myself in the mirror and said "its now or never" and I took the plunge. I was soo scared, all I could think was OMGeeee its all FACE and FOREHEAD for DAYZ! yikes:/ But I had come to far to turn back so I just ran with it.... The responses I got ranged from "oh wow your hair is beautiful and it fits you" to "oh but i mean you ain't real natural 'cause you're like mixed right?" -_- If I am not "real natural" can someone please tell me what is? I mean we live in America everyone is mixed, lets be honest; Its funny to me because I never really thought of myself that way. Maybe it has to do with my overwhelming Jamaican upbringing or maybe it is because I went to all white schools most of my life and a drop of black is BLACK. But long story short, I LOVE THE NATURAL FREEDOM!

stay tuned for more of the journey...

much love

My Journey [[Transitioning]]

Transitioning is the hardest part of going natural and this is what deters most women that have a desire to go natural. In my own experience, THIS WAS THE MOST DIFFICULT PART!!! uggghhhhh some days, many days actually I almost decided to get back on the relaxer.... not to mention my jamaican mom in my ear, "why yer hair stay suh?... yuh needa perm man, just perm it nuh, why yuh don jus perm it"

There are those days when you just can't get it into any style... up, down, pinned, then I just ended up with a hat..... Don't be fooled by the pictures, I had many days where I couldn't do anything with my hair and I refused to do the BIG CHOP.... big chop and my big head does not go together... TOO MUCH bigness for me... but that could just be my own insecurities peeking out :/ Above are the highlights of the major styles I did to transition...

Starting from the bottom photo (black n white shirt), this is when I first started growing it out... I would just let my hair grow, get it pressed by the dominicans, and then I would cut it myself... I would take inches off at a time... but I tried to keep it at the length shown...

The next photo up, I got braids for the first time ever!... I really liked it because it was easy and I had come to a point where I didn't know what to do with my hair and pressing it wasn't doing it anymore.... BUT.... when I had to take them out it was HELL!!!! never ever ever ever again will I get braids, I don't have the patience... when I took my braids out my hair was half permed and half natural... basically a HOT MESS....

The next photo up, i twisted my hair into knots (aka chiney bumps haha) and slicked it back with jam into a head band... this style was a saving grace because it looked good and it hid my permed ends

The last two photos are of my FAVORITE transition!!! Thats why I put up two pictures!!! This is a weave and it was great!!!... I actually miss it sometimes... it was Indian wet and wavy human hair.... One cool day in September of 2008 I got fed up with my half permed and half natural hair and just started chopping out the rest of the perm... then after I was done I looked at myself and realized I had no hair... well not none, but not enough!!!.... i said oh Jesus, what am I going to do with this now.. haha... thats when I decided to get the weave ASAP [[shout out to my girl Betty for hooking it upppp!!] I kept re-weaving until January 2009 when I finally let myself be truly free...

stay tuned...

much love

My Journey [[Permed]]

Sooo, to begin, here are some pictures of me with a relaxer aka that CREAMY CRACK!! (hehe)... While on the relaxer, my hair only grew a few inches past my shoulders and any significant growth would eventually be cut off because continuing the perm would always damage my ends. It basically just turned into a vicious cycle that never ended, well until I decided to go natural! My last perm was Decemeber 2007, I spent a year growing it out. I became officially all natural January 2009.

Stayed tuned as I continue the journey....

much love

Body and Soul, I am Marvelously made

Psalm 139:13-16 (msg)

^13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
you formed me in my mother's womb.
I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
before I'd even lived one day.

I love Jesus; the most high, everlasting father, and my amazing creator. He cared enough to personally handcraft me, one of his many daughters.... and he knows every part of me inside and out... he made me exactly the way I am and he made no mistakes.... Through my transition from relaxed to natural hair, I have learned so much about myself, my insecurities, my thought process, my priorities, my self worth, etc... and in doing so i was able to draw closer to my saviour because at the end of the day MY bottom line is that GOD made me this way and I will accept every part of myself for what it is... good bad beautiful ugly... because I am marvelously made :)

stay tuned for my continued natural hair journey

much love